It’s just one of those nights when I feel so.. Alone.. I don’t know who to talk to, I don’t wanna talk to just anyone, & I don’t even know how to get it all out.. I’m so hurt by everything going on & just don’t know what to do.. I expect too much from something so small. I fall WAY too quickly, get hurt so much & so often.. Idk what makes me keep trying. Every single time, it’s the same out come. & i don’t know why I keep expecting something special to happen, when I have nothing to base my high hopes off of. I hate being so sensitive & I hate being the jealous type.. Fuck love already. I wish it would leave me alone & stop fucking with me..
I’m so tired of my shitty ass life.. Everyone is happy with theirs & everyone is nice to eachother.. It seems like I’m always picked on & left out of SO much things.. & it’s so hard to ignore it all..
I’m honestly scared for the upcoming elections.. When there’s so much issues related to you that ONE person can change, you feel the suspense.. One person is TOTALLY against your natural rights & the other is trying to help us out & FIX the shit hole Bush put us in. Thinking about Romney winning the elections scares me so much.. I don’t want to be forced into a minority again. Gay people are human beings too, & best believe we have feelings.. I honestly believe that if Romney wins, there’s gonna be a civil war or some kind of riot consisting of all the gays. I know I would be in it..